guess i'm dead or somethin like that. this week that has passed i got really sick, i was very fuckin bad and i felt some terrible things.. i really thought i was goin to die.. my illness wasnt thaattt bad to come to death, but uow i was bad and i got total paranoia. i felt like i had a shot in my head and i couldnt take my body no more.. i was leavin.. but i didnt wanted to.. so i tried as hard as i could to keep my self 'in' my body..this was cold.. and painfull..i couldnt breath..my eyes blured, i was pale, and cold. sux a lot.. i never ever want to feel this back again.. never.. not even in the day that i die.. cause in this day i dont want to feel this slow death.. this slow leavin.. no way.. its so agonizing.. that when i felt ok i was like 'oh god how life is gorgeous' but i dunno if it really is, but, do not feel sick is fuckin gorgeous indeed, and do not feel this slow death is terrific too. well, chaotique has been a lil dead.. but i'll try to get back.. at least upload somethin.. even if its a pic..but u know, i really hate this block that i have.. this fuckin block that do not allows me to put out my feelins in any shape, really hope someday i can go through this.. is rare when i can.. really rare.. but it doesnt matter now.. i'm still a lil sick, need to go to bed take a rest.. well.. take care, cya.